Hello all fellow piczoers ! well i guess you all know piczo is closing. I'm really sad to loose all of you but i'd really like to stay in touch so here is my facebook and my tumblr. I love you all !! xoxReport
Not another soul could love you like my rotten bones do.
Hey my lovely followers, i'm sorry i havent't posted in forever. I have a lot to tell all of you though. So today is Halloween as you all know and also my 18th birthday, i'm not sure if i'm excited or not since i've pretty much experienced everything an 18 yrs.old can do like clubbing, buying booze and cigarettes. I'm glad to be 18 and i guess officially an adult because i can make my own decisions and vote in the elections. It's also my girlfriends first day at her new job, i'm really happy for her i think she really needed some change from her last job. We had a fight a while back and i could swear it almost killed me, but i think everything is good now and we both understand each other a lot better. It's just made me realize that i love her so much more than i thought i did, she's a huge part of my life now. If my life were the sky, she is my moon. I've quit Cegep, i feel like i could do so many better things with my time. To be completely honest i've sort of had an awakening, i was so depressed and hated everything. I would cry in the morning before going to class, at lunch i would go into the bathroom eat lunch. I couldn't make friends, well i didn't want to. I was cutting again and not eating well. Everything i was doing was overwhelming. I have gone through a lot though too like my parents fighting and almost leaving each other. I had some serious self-esteem issues again as well. On the bright side of all this everything is already much better and only good things to come. I'm searching for my next school and program for either the next session in the winter or next fall. If it's next fall i plan on getting a full time job until then and geting my licence because yeah i'm so pathetic i dont have one yet. I've also started writing a story/screenplay that i think many people would really like. I'll probably post parts once in a while for your feedback.
I had the most brutal weekend camping with the school, we did rock climbing, canoeing and my favourite was archery, after reading the hunger gams and all, i think this will be my new passion especially since i kinda have skills with aiming. I plan on working out a lot more if i have the time, thats why i haven't been blogging much I literally haven't had the time to get my thoughts together its just like one thing after the other and i'm a little lost. I've had the most difficult time adapting to college, I am forever alone in that place. I have no one and I can't deal with my emotions, I just go into the bathroom and cry usually. I'm not even sure what's wrong with me, but everything seems to be going wrong, it's as if nothing can ever just be easy. I have no reason to get up in the morning, I just keep thinking about the memories and now it's over.I've been thinking about my best friend a lot because I feel that she is a perfect example of everyone and everything I ever loved and lost. I've learned that telling people your thoughts and true emotions can sometimes be worse then just keeping them to yourself. When you keep these things a secret you believe that if people knew, they would treat you differently, show a bit of empathy and care for you. As when you tell the people you love and trust the most, and they ignore the truth or do nothing, it hurts much more.
Sorry I haven't posted in a while I've been really busy and haven't really had time to blog lately. So I survived my first days of CEGEP, although it was hard I think things will get easier soon so far my classes seem interesting. Yesterday I had gym class from 8 am to like 5 pm, it was brutal and next weekend my class is going camping which is also going to really suck but at least after gym class will be over for the session. The other night my girlfriend to me on a date because we never really went on a real date, so we went with the classic diner and a movie and it was lovely. We are in such a good place in our relationship right now although we are really stressed with starting college so we've both had some difficult moments, this girl means the world to me and I wouldn't trade anything for what we have.
- Sky is womb and she's the moon ♫
I went to Montreal with my mom,dad and girlfriend and i had a much better time then I usually do but thats obviously because i was with the girl I love. She's sleeping and I've been staring at her for a good hour, she's so beautiful and i love her so much.
So tomorrow is my party, I cleaned like a maniac and I'm exhausted. I'm a little nervous because i invited a few more people than i was supposed too but I think it should be fun and i hope it will all work out, cross your fingers.